I am awesome!

I dont have a face like barbie.

I dont have a body like those Victoria Secret models.

But what I have are Pimples, Pimple Marks and huge, dark eye bags, fat tummy and fat legs.

Often times, whenever I look in the mirror I hate what I see. I think of my self as an ugly duckling and a not-so-good-enough lady that no guy would like to pursue.

I adore and envy those commercial models who has a perfect pinkish glowing skin, those billboard models who makes every head of a man turn. I hate the thought that Im not Anne Curtis and whats worst is that I can never be like her; perfect and adored.

Day by day, I put make-ups to cover up those blemishes, I find the perfect clothes to hide my fat tummy. Day by day, Im struggling. 

Lets blame it to media. Lets blame it to Anne Curtis. Lets blame it to my parents for giving me a not so good genes, Lets blame it to everyone.... but my self. I have no one to blame but myself because I am the one who taught to my self that I am not pretty, that I am not good enough. I indulge my self too much to the worldly definition of beautiful at which, as a daughter of God, I shouldn't do.

My maker is God. My maker is perfect. He makes no mistakes, therefore, IM NOT A MISTAKE; My face and Body is not a mistake.  As it is written in 2 Samuel 22:31 "God's way is PERFECT"  and in Psalm 139:17 "...You are fearfully and Wonderfully made".  and just last night, as I was surfing the net, I saw this video and this made me realize that I AM AWESOME and this made me realize my real worth.

In conclusion. Yes, I still dont have a barbie like face, a victoria's secret model like body, but I know in my self, I am unique, I am worth dying for, and I AM AWESOME. 

22 Lies young women believe and the truths that can set us free :)

This is from the book Lies Young Women Believe by Nancy Leigh DeMoss and Dannah Gresh (CSM)
I just want to share it with you and i hope you'll experience the same freedom that I'm experiencing now after reading this :)
God bless and experience the freedom! :)

1. When you're having a really bad day and tempted to feel that God is not good
*God is good*
"Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good." Psalm 136:1

2. When you feel far from God and tempted to feel that He doesn't love you
*God loves you and wants you to have His best*
"I am sure that neither death not life, angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans 8:38-39

3. When you feel ugly
*God created you as His own masterpiece*
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful in your works; my soul knows it very well" Psalm 139:14

4. When you feel rejected
*God accepts you through Christ*
"He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world... In love He predestined us for adoption through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will, to the praise of His glorious grace, with which He has blessed us in the Beloved." Ephesians 1:4-6

5. When you feel you need more "things" and consumed by your desires
*God is enough*
"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want." Psalm 23:1
"Be content with what you have, for He has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'"  Hebrews 13:5

6. When you feel anxious about circumstances
*God can be trusted*
"Commit your ways unto the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act." Psalm 37:5

7. When you feel like something happened that will ruin your life forever
*God doesn't make any mistakes*
"As for God, His way is perfect" Psalm 18:30
"The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord. endures forever." Psalm 138:8

8. When you like you can't handle the problem you're facing
*God's grace is enough*
"He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

9. When you feel like you're sin is too great to be forgiven
*The blood of Christ is sufficient to cover all my sin*
"If we walk in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin." 1 John 1:7

10. When you feel like you'll never be able to overcome a sinful habit
*The cross of Christ is sufficient to conquer my sinful flesh*
"Our old self was crucified with Him in order that the body of sin might be brought to nothing, so that we would no longer be enslaved to sin. For one who has died has been set free from sin" Romans 6:6-7

11. When you feel like your potential is limited by your past
*Your past does not have to control your future*
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed way; behold, the new has come." 2 Corinthians 2:17

12. When you feel like you don't know where to turn for help and advice
*God's word is sufficient to lead you, teach you, and heal you.*
"The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul; the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple." Psalm 19:7
"He sent out His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction" Psalm 107:20
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path" Psalm 119:105

13. When you feel like God is asking you to do something that is impossible
*Through the power of His Holy Spirit, God will enable you to do anything He commands you to do.*
"He who calls you is faithful; He will surely do it." 1 Thessalonians 5:24
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13

14. When you to blame others for your responses
*You're responsible before God for your behavior, responses and choices.*
"The son shall not suffer for the iniquity of the father, nor the father suffer for the iniquity of the son. The righteous shall be upon himself, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon himself" Ezekiel 18:20

15. When you feel that your choices today doesn't really matter
*Your choices today will affect your future*
"Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows the spirit will from the spirit reap eternal life" Galatians 6:7-8

16. When you feel that submitting to an authority will steal your freedom
*The greatest freedom you can experience is found by submitting to God-ordained authority*
"Remind them to be submissive to rulers and authorities, to be obedient" Titus 3:1

17. When you feel like giving up on the church
*You need the church.*
"There are many parts, yet one body. The eye cannot say to the hand, I have no need of you, nor again the head to the feet, I have no need of you.. that there may be no division in the body, but the members may have the same care for one another." 1 Corinthians 12:20-21,25
"Not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the day drawing near." Hebrews 10:25

18. When you feel that a career is more rewarding and valuable than marriage and motherhood
*In the will of God, there is no higher, holier calling than to be a wife and mother.*
"Train young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled." Titus 2:4-5

19. When you were tempted to sacrifice holiness for immediate happiness
*Personal holiness is more important than immediate happiness*
"(Christ) gave himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for himself a people for his own possession who are zealous for good works." Titus 2:14

20. When you become consumed with wanting God to fix your life
*God is more concerned about changing you and glorifying Himself than about solving your problems*
"He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before Him.. according to the purpose of His will, to the praise of His glorious grace." Ephesians 1:4-6
"May the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Thessalonians 5:23

21. When you don't understand a difficult situation you're facing
*It is impossible to be godly without suffering*
"After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1 Peter 5:10

22. When you want things go your way
*It's not about you; It's about Him*
"For Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be glory forever. Amen." Romans 11:36

True Beauty

I woke up this morning, done fixing my bed and doing my daily quiet time then went to the CR to brush my teeth and wash my face. After washing my face, I went back to my room and start combing my hair. I gazed myself into the mirror. "Ugh! ang laki ng pimple ko! ano ba yan!", then I saw my dark eye bags, then i saw my other pimples, then my dark complexion, then my flabs. I started to hate everything that i see; My pimples, dark eye bags, dark complexion, my flabs, EVERYTHING about me! "Ang pangit-pangit ko talaga!" I cried.

My dad and brothers used to tease me about my face, complexion; everything about my physical appearance.  "Ang itim mo talaga!" "Negra!" Panget!”. I wanted to use glutathione to whiten my skin, make-ups to cover up those pimples and eye bags; i want to undergo several treatments to beautify myself. I want all of this to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, and to be accepted in this world.

 As I continuously gazed myself into the mirror, crying, I suddenly heard a voice that whisper in my ear and reminds me that I am a Princess, I'm His Princess, I am God's Princess. Yes, I also thought that God was just trying to pacify me, but in my heart, i heard His rebuke, "But I am not a liar, I made you in my own image, in my own likeness. You are fearfully and wonderfully made." (Psalm 139: 13-14)

And because I am made in God’s own image, I know im really be

autiful because my maker is beautiful, God itself is beautiful. I know I’m really a princess, a daughter of a king. (1 John 1:12)

Physical appearance is nothing to Christ, what really matters to Him is our character, our heart. Just like what Proverbs 31:30 said, “Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.”

Fear the Lord and let the real beauty shine within you!

“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” 

1 Peter 3:3-4