Waiting.. but not for love.

Often times when i said or hear the word "WAITING" all i can think of is love...
Something like; Waiting for that special person to come / Waiting for that special person to like me  / Waiting for the right time to be with the person and the "waiting" goes on.. BASTA! T R U E L O V E W A I T S. 

But this time.. God is teaching me to wait--not for love-- but for an answer--not again for love--but for work.

I've been crying to God about my job for several weeks now because i really want a new job, not for anything else but because i know for a fact that this is not where i belong. I feel like there's no personal nor professional growth for me in this company. I cant feel the joy and peace of working and then earning. Whenever i come to the office, its more of a burden not a blessing. At first, i thought that things will change and ill learn to love my job.. but then as time goes on, things are just getting worse.

I passed my resume to other companies, but then none gave me any feedback. I began to feel disappointed. I felt so stupid, low and depressed. It feels like i wont be qualified to anything big and fear conquered me that i will just remain here. But then God assures me with His promises in Jeremiah 29:11 that His plans for me is to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. 

I take heart and grasped in that promise of God.. and I began to think positively. As time goes by, i started to realize that maybe God is telling me something; that maybe He's teaching me something here. Then God talked to me about being faithful with little things.. He talked to me using Luke 16:10 that states that "He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much." then there, God made it clear. I prayed that may He change the workings of my heart, may I be sensitive enough to know His calling and may I really learn the things that He wants me to learn in here.. Soon enough, I realized one thing again, that God is using these circumstances for me to draw closer to Him.

Then as I just put my hope in Him and His promises, he then opened doors for me. 

Just last wednesday, after I did my devotion and pray my phone rang. It's from UPHSD, My Alma Mater and the HR is asking me if i'm free to have a job interview within the day or any other day. Stunned and Hopeful, I answered yes. After my conversation with the HR, I then texted Ms. Rowena Morta, the head of the Department of Communications of UPHSD about this because the position that im about to apply for was Masscomm Assistant and she didn't resplied. So yesterday (thursday) I went there. I prayed first and asked God's guidance for this. So i had my exam, then the interview. During the interview, i felt so confident specially when I knew that my interviewer is a brother in Christ. So the interview went so well, after that, the interviewer said "dadalhin na kita kay ms. weng" then i asked "weng? Ms. Rowena Morta?" and he said yes. 

When we arrived at the Comm Department, there's no kaba in me. I felt so good. Ms. Weng and I just talked for 5 mins; she just asked me if she'll get me now, what will happen to my current job and i just answered her that my boss was informed that im really looking for a new job.. Then as the conversation goes on, bigla niyang nabanggit yung opening sa marketing. She said, and it just amazed and excite me more 'If i wont get you, sa marketing ka. Di ko sinasabing tatanggapin kita ah, pero yun, kung di kita kukunin, ipupush kita sa marketing". So there, I was stunned because i have two job options! :)\

I thought God's surprise for me is done. When I went on SPS office and greeted Mr. Lavapie, the prefect of discipline of UPHSD, I didnt know that the one whom he was talking in to was Mr. Robert Tamayo. So I greeted them both, when all of a suddent Sir Lavapie said to Sir Robert 'She applied here' and no hesitation, Sir Robert looked at me and said "Magleleave yung assistant ko. Buntis kasi. I want you be my secretary". 

I felt so happy! THREE JOB OPTIONS IN ONE DAY.

Indeed, God's promises are true. If only we'll be faithful enough, if only we could trust Him fully on our lives, He can move mountains. See how God moved the mountain in me? He can do the same in your lives.

And now... God is teaching me new thing, to wait. Ive been waiting for this new job opportunity for three months now, and now God asked me again to wait, not for the job opportunity but for the answer. But without Ms. Weng's final say i truely can say that GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT. :)

16 Years

Before anything else i would like to ask you to read John 11:25-26, Psalms 34:22.

A year in Pre-school, 6 years in elementary, 4 years in high school and 5 years in college, my 16 years in school is finally over.

I just graduated last April 5 2013 with a degree of Bachelors of Arts Major in Mass Communication and in my 16 years in school, I only grasped to God’s promises.

Since I started going to school, my mom together with her family are the ones sustaining me specially my educational needs. I remember there was a time when I thought I’ll stop going to school. It was during my 3^rd year in college, second semester; no one pledged to support my schooling. It was also during that time when I personally asked my lolas and titas from my father side for help for the first time expecting that they would at any point help me yet I was surprised when they asked me to just stop going to school and just return next school semester when I have enough money for my tuition fee because they have nothing to give.


I was starting to lose hope, it was first week in school and im not yet enrolled. I can find no way for me to go to school when I remembered that i also have a powerful God who makes things possible--that even though for me it is impossible now to still be able to go to school, He can make impossible things possible.  I begun to pray and wait for His answer and soon enough my mom’s sister pledged and  gave me enough money to enroll and yes I got enrolled but my dilemma didn't stop there because the money that was given to me was only ¼ of my whole tuition fee for that semester and im afraid that I might not have the scholarship discount that I used to have since the school is having their “cost-cutting”.



Fear and worries conquered me; Im enrolled, but what about the next payments? What about my allowance? What about the projects? ...... My mind was filled with these questions and then again, God reminded me about his power.

The junior year ended by God's grace. We were able to pay all the bills. We survived. And now, my last year in school is coming. My senior year but now, fear and worries has no place in me since i know and God assures me that He is there, He will guide and sustain me. He's with me for the past 15 years in school, and now with my last year, he will still be with me. And, true enough, Mom was given a job and her earnings were more than enough to pay my tuition fee. So i got enrolled, and while im studying, ive been engaged in buy and sell and my earnings in this business is enough to sustain my allowance and school projects.

For 16 years I don't know and I really cant explain how I survived and how God sustained  and provided me with my tuition fees, baons, additional school payments, projects and so on. 

There were also those times when people where cursing and judging me that I wont be able to graduate on time or I will get pregnant yet by God’s grace, protection and love,  I graduated and I graduated without a kid on my stomach!

During my senior year, my last year in school, all I asked from God is to let me graduate but, again, part of God’s promise for me is to prosper me, so he prosper me for not just letting me simply graduate but he let me graduate giving honor and pride to my family by having a gold medallion for leadership where my mom and papa ric’s greatest desire of going up on a stage during graduation to put a medal has been achieved. And now, as I face a new chapter of my life, I wont be afraid for I know and God proved me for the past 16 years that He is with me. Truly, God’s promises are true and my God is true and living!

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  Jeremiah 29:11