I am awesome!

I dont have a face like barbie.

I dont have a body like those Victoria Secret models.

But what I have are Pimples, Pimple Marks and huge, dark eye bags, fat tummy and fat legs.

Often times, whenever I look in the mirror I hate what I see. I think of my self as an ugly duckling and a not-so-good-enough lady that no guy would like to pursue.

I adore and envy those commercial models who has a perfect pinkish glowing skin, those billboard models who makes every head of a man turn. I hate the thought that Im not Anne Curtis and whats worst is that I can never be like her; perfect and adored.

Day by day, I put make-ups to cover up those blemishes, I find the perfect clothes to hide my fat tummy. Day by day, Im struggling. 

Lets blame it to media. Lets blame it to Anne Curtis. Lets blame it to my parents for giving me a not so good genes, Lets blame it to everyone.... but my self. I have no one to blame but myself because I am the one who taught to my self that I am not pretty, that I am not good enough. I indulge my self too much to the worldly definition of beautiful at which, as a daughter of God, I shouldn't do.

My maker is God. My maker is perfect. He makes no mistakes, therefore, IM NOT A MISTAKE; My face and Body is not a mistake.  As it is written in 2 Samuel 22:31 "God's way is PERFECT"  and in Psalm 139:17 "...You are fearfully and Wonderfully made".  and just last night, as I was surfing the net, I saw this video and this made me realize that I AM AWESOME and this made me realize my real worth.

In conclusion. Yes, I still dont have a barbie like face, a victoria's secret model like body, but I know in my self, I am unique, I am worth dying for, and I AM AWESOME.